“I love you so very much”

It’s not a string of happy words

It’s love but paralysing hurt

Not the kind that holds you still

That kind that grabs your heart to kill

When everything’s wrong and it feels like night

And day are the same old grey way

When your coffee is like water

And your water is black

Where your mind can’t hold a thought

Not through the lack of trying

But because that love stops your soul from dying

I love you so very much.